Me Caso

¿Cómo fue que dejé de escribir? No lo sé. Pero una y otra vez Dios me concedió deseos desde la última vez que escribí. Siento que fue un blog de súplicas y muchos ruegos. La alegría es saber que no terminaron ahí. Han sido años de alegría y bendiciones.

Dios me dió todo y en más grande.

Philipp llega y encaja en mi corazón perfectamente. Su forma de ser ocupa perfectamente el lugar llamado romance en mi corazón.

En un sueño ya lo conocí, me acuerdo que alguien con esa personalidad que tanto admiro había decidido casarse conmigo. Una vez más los sueños o quizás Dios me han suspirado; tranquila.

Two years already. I feel like yesterday when the fresh breeze from the Thames surrounded me when I was replying his messages in London. That fresh breeze seems like yesterday yet so many days have passed. I never thought those fantasies and impressions could be so real.

Two years after that I find myself in surreal landscapes again admiring the Hong Kong skyline with his strong and tender hand protecting mine. Obviously this immense circumstance has absorbed my destiny and yet intensified my own dreams. How magical! Yet the fear of losing or changing is constant. Likewise an endless reaffirmation of loving my life with anything my life is ready to show me. This mystery has driven me to increase my faith. I clearly can’t do anything but become a better person myself. I try not to ask much because I am so lucky already.

Things I learned in my 20's

During my 20’s I dealt with so many things that seemed impossible to manage. Now I look back and I think I solved some of them.

How to lose weight or how to be happy with your weight

The next thing I learned was how to lose weight. While in University studying architecture I gained some weight. For all that time I tried so many things to be fitter. I created a very tense relationship with me and food. My mother is also suggesting me to look like miss universe and obviously she used to hide every piece of bread from me. That all just made me hungrier. My diets and everyone else’s diets.

One day I read that the best way to lose weight is having an athletic goal. That was perfect as I also was training for races all the time. The big race was the New York Marathon. After accepting the challenge everything changed. I had a personal trainer that said. “Every pound you have will make it more difficult when running. Imagine running and carrying one or two pounds of rice. In the end you would be tired right? That is how your weight is limiting your capacity. You need to lose weight.” And so I trained and really felt the motivation to go faster and further and so I tried to avoid portions feeling they will only make me slower.

When training for a marathon you end up running from 15 to 30 kilometers on any weekend. When you realize you have done that for months. Obviously my family saw that and started asking me to eat more. They offered me any food they could just to keep me healthy after the runs. And guess what? You realize you are not desperate about food any more. You start listening your body. I was size 8 now I am size 2 or 0?

I encourage you to find something that will make you change your connection with food. Thanks God I really enjoy every bite I eat nowadays.

About Saying the right thing

I though that I was not saying the right words. I though I needed to be more accurate when expressing my feelings. What I learned is that the best word is the one didn’t say. Wait for maybe two weeks. Feelings and emotions are like the ocean waves. One day they are high and the other day they are low. Try to be rational in what you say. Try to avoid saying unless its really beautiful.

Calladita, en silencio  y sin despertar.

No lo muevas; que nada cambie.

Que siga el sueño que siempre imagine;  calladita, con cuidado y silencio.

Gracias Dios mío por tantas bendiciones.  

Jamás pude haber hecho algo para merecer tanto, todo es tuyo; gracias.

Calladita y en silencio, no lo mueves, ni despiertes; que nada cambie porque es perfecto. 

Adoro

Adoro la calle en que nos vimos,
La noche cuando nos conocimos,
Adoro las cosas que me dices,
Nuestros ratos felices
Los adoro, vida mía.

Llevo ya algunos dias asi, con un sol radiante por dentro. Desperte en mis 30 anios sintiendome mas feliz que nunca, con la quietura de lo inevitable. Finalmente puedo desahogar mis sentimientos de ternura sin cesar. No dejo de ver detalles y expresiones de carino que me hacen pensar si algun dia habre hecho algo tan bueno para merecer tanta dicha y entonces miro al cielo y se que nunca merecere tanto como lo que estoy recibiendo. Solo digo gracias Dios porque esto es producto de tu misericordia y generosidad.

Te pido Dios mio que me acerques siempre a ti. Te necesitamos tanto!

En San Valentin senti lo mismo. Fume un poco de un cigarrillo y por primera vez ese tipico bajo era pura alegria. Cada detalle que voy descubriendo de el hacen que me sienta mas agradecida y creo que Dios no pudo escoger a alguien mas a mi medida. 

Hoy escribo esto porque por primera vez lo siento asi. Llevo 2 meses en la Gloria. Que lindura vivo en el paraiso.

Poema que siempre escucho a mi papa; poema de su abuelo

Juramento

(A mi esposa)
Todo pasa en el mundo, todo dura
lo que dura una flor, un ave, un nido;
todo muere o se pierde en la oscura
y pavorosa noche del olvido.

Pero el amor inmenso y la ternura
en el que por ti, latido tras latido
arde mi corazón y han convertido
mi vida en una noche de dulzura
no pasarán jamás: podrán los años
rodar fugaces en veloz carrera
y apagar tus miradas y tus besos

Con un soplo mortal; los desengaños
exaltarán mi amor y, cuando muera.
¡aún en la tumba te amarán mis huesos!

Por Ismael Perez Pazmino